jps wrote:

August 3, 2009:

I took off today, Monday, and tomorrow to practice my routine and make
sure it is well polished. I need to work out every detail, there is
only one shot. Also I need to be completely immersed into something
before I can be successful. I haven’t had a drink since Friday at
about 2:30. Total effort needed. Tomorrow is the big day.

Unfortunately I talked to my neighbor today, who is very positive and
upbeat. I need to remain focused and absorbed COMPLETELY. Last time I
tried this, in January, I chickened out. Lets see how this new
approach works.

Maybe soon, I will see God and Jesus. At least that is what I was
told. Eternal life does NOT depend on works. If it did, we will all be
in hell. Christ paid for EVERY sin, so how can I or you be judged BY
GOD for a sin when the penalty was ALREADY paid. People judge but that
does not matter. I was reading the Bible and The Integrity of God
beginning yesterday, because soon I will see them.

I will try not to add anymore entries because this computer clicking
distracts me.

Also, any of the “Practice Papers” left on my coffee table I used or
the notes in my gym bag can be published freely. I will not be
embarased, because, well, I will be dead. Some people like to study
that stuff. Maybe all this will shed insight on why some people just
cannot make things happen in their life, which can potentially benefit
others.


"Eternal life does NOT depend on works. If it did, we will all be
in hell. Christ paid for EVERY sin, so how can I or you be judged BY
GOD for a sin when the penalty was ALREADY paid."

The Freak says that is the interpretation he believes, too. Probably
Stalin, too.